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Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Things of mine to see:

I need to stop being up late enough for MyO to call it the next day.

Right now it's 12:45 in the morning on Tuesday, and I've yet to go to bed. I really need more sleep than I let myself get, but I don't have all the time in the world to do what I want to.

I'm thinking about dropping piano again, as well as quitting the paper route. The paper route doesn't draw in much money at all. My piano classes are just not working for me because I can never remember to practice. Everyone acts like I don't care if I go anywhere with this, but I really do, it's just that I have such a screwed up memory system that I can't seem to ever remember to practice. And then, it seems to have lost the appeal it once had to me. I mean, I used to be excited about going to lesson, to practice every day, but now I find it annoying and/or unnerving. That's probably why my brain sub-consciously chooses for me not to practice. I really want to learn to play the piano, but I can't stand the process, and I really don't think I'll ever use it. I really think I have lost interest in it, not because I'm not going anywhere, but because I'm not good enough, and I will probably never be good enough.

Well, it's about ten to one now. I've got this idea for a story I'd like to start while it's still on my mind. Maybe then I might even dream about it and develop the idea even more. :)

Well, wish me luck with these relatively difficult decisions...

One last thing: in case it didn't come through a little in the rest of the post, I'm kinda in one of those moods again. You know, the kind where I complain about all the stupid stuff and call myself less than sufficient. Whatever.
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